Even the TBI can't offer me security
I got a call from a TBI agent in regards to a former client of mine.Apparently,this client has written and called the TBI making some accusations.
In researching her background and police record,the TBI agent discovered that she'd made many complaints before.Most of them general in nature however some specific.This client is paranoid schyphrenic and believes people are out to get them,etc.Since some specific people were named in some of the complaints,the TBI was calling these indivdiuals as an FYI. So,yours truly,got a call.The agent assured me there was so real reason for concern on my part and they just wanted me to be aware since my name had specifically been mentioned.For any of you who know me,you know how my mind started to get anxious and worry.I even asked the TBI agent should I change my phone #,etc.All kinds of scenerios start playing in my mind.Even though the TBI is aware of this personm,etc that doesn't protect me from them.If they want to hurt me,I'm sure they could find a way.Then,God quickly brought me back to reality.Anxiety and worry are things I've battled for years but have managed to surrender to Christ.God wants us to live a life of freedom and a life free from worry.The Word tells us that.I could hire a personal bodyguard,move,change my phone #,change jobs,etc to have a sense of security.But,then,I've given in to fear and am not living in freedom.I love my life right now and to give it up in fear of someone would mean that I am a slave to fear.But Romans 8:15 says "For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear,but you received the Spirit of sonship.And by Him we cry "Abba,Father" So,I rejoice tonight that I am a daughter of the King !!!! I rejoice that I can feel secure because I know God is watching over me and I can call to Him anytime.Lots of things can make me think I'm secure (dead bolts,alarm systems,walking out with friend in parking lots,going the speed limit,etc) but only my relationship with God can promise me I'm secure :)
In researching her background and police record,the TBI agent discovered that she'd made many complaints before.Most of them general in nature however some specific.This client is paranoid schyphrenic and believes people are out to get them,etc.Since some specific people were named in some of the complaints,the TBI was calling these indivdiuals as an FYI. So,yours truly,got a call.The agent assured me there was so real reason for concern on my part and they just wanted me to be aware since my name had specifically been mentioned.For any of you who know me,you know how my mind started to get anxious and worry.I even asked the TBI agent should I change my phone #,etc.All kinds of scenerios start playing in my mind.Even though the TBI is aware of this personm,etc that doesn't protect me from them.If they want to hurt me,I'm sure they could find a way.Then,God quickly brought me back to reality.Anxiety and worry are things I've battled for years but have managed to surrender to Christ.God wants us to live a life of freedom and a life free from worry.The Word tells us that.I could hire a personal bodyguard,move,change my phone #,change jobs,etc to have a sense of security.But,then,I've given in to fear and am not living in freedom.I love my life right now and to give it up in fear of someone would mean that I am a slave to fear.But Romans 8:15 says "For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear,but you received the Spirit of sonship.And by Him we cry "Abba,Father" So,I rejoice tonight that I am a daughter of the King !!!! I rejoice that I can feel secure because I know God is watching over me and I can call to Him anytime.Lots of things can make me think I'm secure (dead bolts,alarm systems,walking out with friend in parking lots,going the speed limit,etc) but only my relationship with God can promise me I'm secure :)
posted by Alicia Beth @ 6:34 PM
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